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From: To: "JE Jail" <[email protected]> Subject:... Date: Mon, 15 Mar 2010 06:51:58 +0000 To answer your question, yes, I have spent the past 6 years doing things to make you happy and I gave up everything I had, as well as my future, to be with you. I was hesitant to accept any help from you until you convinced me you thought I deserved it and you wouldn't one day use it to control me, you reassured me I never again had to worry about it. So I agreed to devote my life to just being your girlfriend and knowing I would not be able to spend time going to school, having my own life or be able to grow in ways that weren't directly beneficial to you. ( mat only changed recently when you went toJail...I was lonely sof tiled to no my time with pleasant things to take my mind offbeing alone all the time. 1 Win love with dying and (ought to keep doing it. ) I was in love with you and wanted to be with you more than anything so I accepted living life under your wing even if it meant giving up freedom to spend my time as I wish, where I wish, freedom to have a career, be taken seriously by your guests and friends, or regularly do anything other than be at your beck and call. I did that because I wanted to have a relationship with you, spend time with you, feel appreciated, special and loved by you. I have used every opportunity to prove to you that whatever happens, I am 1000/0 on your side, looking out for your interests, defending you in front of people and at your disposal to do anything you want to help if you get in trouble or get sick. I have told you over and over that there is nothing you can do to change that. At times when I was hurt, disappointed or ..furious with you, even at my expense I'd rather take a punch than hurt you, I still would give up my life to help and protect you. That, you can't buy anywhere . You now seem to recognize but dismiss the fact you can trust me as if it weren't even part of the dynamic.. but it is. And it is a rarest quality to find; surely more valuable than another servant or a cook. You ask me about entitlement..I feel entitled to be told the truth and to know you will always keep your word to me. And although I don't think I am entitled to everything else, I very much appreciate your generosity but it doesn't shock me; I think it is natural to want to show appreciation to someone so remarkable 0 whether Ws in a form of weekend spent alone, flowers, or flying lessons.. My love & loyalty is the most valuable thing I have to offer and it is how I show you I appreciate you. But although to me that is the biggest reason you would want to treat me nicely, there are plenty others...over the years, the ever-changing errands; foot rubs; baths; nails, facials; cooking; organizing trips; flowers; girls; wigs, outfits; holding your hand, listening and trying to help every night for years when you couldn't sleep because of the investigation, being the only person working for fist weeks after you went to jail, setting up your office, visitation, evening food, daily photos & fun movies, serving, compilations... You quickly forget everything as soon as someone else shows up and does some of it for 2 weeks and that's what made me angry. I hope I answered both your questions. I am going to sleep now. Good night EFTA00762582