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To: Jeffrey [email protected]] James [email protected]] From: Sarah Sent: Tue 5/24/2011 10:04:31 AM Subject: Fw: fyi This email and any files transmitted with it are confidential and intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the sender immediately. Original Message From: "Sarah" <[email protected]> Date: Wed, 27 Apr 2011 02:17:01 To: Jeffrey [email protected]> Reply-To: [email protected] It is really horrendous to be continually used to hurt people you care deeply about by the newspapers. It is beyond any words, as you know. I know you spoke to James. I of all people understand what it feels like to be castagated by the Tabloids. I know how you feel. I know you also feel hellaciously let down by me, from what you were either told or read, and I must humbly apologise to you and your heart for that. You have always been a steadfast, generous and supreme friend to me and my family. As you know I did absolutely not say the P. Word about you. But understand it was reported that I did. However, I am apologising to you today for not replying to your email, or reaching out to you when the tabloids were so vicious and horrendous... In the weeks leading up to that monday when I made my statement. And then afterwards. When they used me to hurt you beyond realms. As you know, it was and is the worst nightmare for you, but also for me. As you know the whole story did not come about because of me. However because of my statement they made it worse for you. I understand all this. You know me well, and we are steadfast to that. But, I must apologise for not reaching out to you or answering your email. It is unlike me. Therefore, you can only deduce, that something else must have been going on, for me to react in this way. So in the eye of your storm, which I know is hellacious, may I ask you to accept my apology for not reaching out to you, in the eye of MY storm, and accept and understand that I was in fear beyond all totality and I could not move left or right because of it, and was close to bed ridden with the fear of what was happening. I was paralysed. I was advised in no uncertain terms to having nothing to do with you, and not to speak or email you, and if I did, I would cause more problems to both You and The Duke and myself. So I shut down and ran away. I was broken and lost. So please understand, as I do about you, that I ws broken and not the strong person you know, and I got completely obliterated too, and I saw all my childrens work etc disappearing.. I shut down and everyone out. I was frightened. The Palace system is frightening, and each step I turned or each action was wrong and I did not want to hurt Andrew one more time. So Jeffrey, this email is sent with a hope you accept, and understand a little of my side too. EFTA_R1_00265096 EFTA01863399 We are and have both been in the firing line, both blamed for stuff we have not done, this front line attack has been like this for me for 22 years. You would have thought I was thick skinned enough to handle it. I know there are 2 sides to every story, I have heard yours, please hear mine. I am glad you spoke to James, and James made you aware from the British media standpoint, that all this hellaciousness had been going on many days BEFORE my statement. And I was instructed to act with the uptmost speed, from most sides, if I was to have any chance at all holding onto my career as a childrens book author etc and a childrens philanthropist, and I got terrified. I should have taken advice from you too, before speaking to Geordie, and taken a day or two to think of the ramifications of my actions, but for the reasons as stated above, I was in over riding fear. I am sorry. I just did not know what or where to turn. I know James can send you every single article from the days, weeks, leading up to that Monday of the statement from the endless horrendous pages written about You and The Duke. So you can see why I became paralysed. I know you and James are going to work on a solution. In the meantime, I write this from the truth of my heart. This email and any files transmitted with it are confidential and intended solely for the use of the individual or entity to whom they are addressed. If you have received this email in error please notify the sender immediately. EFTA_R1_00265097 EFTA01863400